Life, Work

Dear Trolls,

The viewer emails I share with the public spark plenty of interesting responses.

99% of them are kind, but I’ll be honest, the petty ones always evoke the most reaction!

People often ask me if comments about my hair, my wardrobe or my overall physical appearance bother me. Like this one for example (an oldie but a goodie) :

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It all depends on what a viewer is criticizing. Some comments really play into my insecurities. The ones I’ve received in recent months have been disappointing, more than anything else.

As I mentioned in my previous post, I got pregnant about three weeks after coming back to work last November. There was no such thing as morning sickness for me. It was all-day sickness. From six weeks to 15 weeks, it felt like I was nursing a crushing hangover, minus the fun the night before.

The nausea was severe. Nothing smelled good, looked good or tasted good. I got the flu, a stomach gastro (x2) and countless colds thanks to a toddler in daycare. And I was exhausted. I dreamt about my head hitting the pillow, from the moment it was off of it.

Anyone who’s been nauseous during pregnancy knows just how hard the first trimester can be. Even more so with a spirited toddler. Some days I was running on just a few hours of sleep. It took every fibre of my being to get dressed, slap on some make-up and style my hair. Being on TV five nights a week required my inner cheerleader to work overtime. So. Many. Mental pep talks: “I can do this. I can get through today. One hour at a time. This is a good thing. You get a baby out of this!”

When you feel like absolute crap, the last thing you want is to be reminded of how crappy you look.

Why can’t people just sit back and judge from the comfort of their own homes? I’m totally cool with that! Judge away. But is it really necessary to let me know how sloppy you think I’ve become? For some, it’s as if it’s their duty.

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What those internet trolls seem to forget is that there’s much more to Carole Anne Devaney than what they see between 6 and 7 pm.

It’s so easy to criticize someone for wearing ‘a lot of black’, but what if you knew they were doing it to conceal a growing stomach?

It’s so easy to criticize someone for their ‘deteriorating’ hair appearance, but what if you knew how nauseous they felt, standing there in front of the mirror… curling one strand of hair at a time? Or how about that half of it had fallen out after giving birth, and was now growing back in awkward patches!?

And it’s so easy to criticize someone for not ‘looking their best for the public eye’, but believe me I’m TRYING my best. Learning to juggle a full-time job with a family life takes time. And there’s never enough time!! Especially not for shopping and monthly haircuts!!

I might sound like I’m riding the pity party bus over here, but I swear that’s not my intention. I just feel the need to speak up. I’m only one woman working in television, but I know for a fact that all my on-air female colleagues have received and continue to receive some pretty petty emails, and far too often they revolve around their looks. It’s a job hazard for women, I swear!

I just wish people were a little more sensitive in their feedback. Take into consideration what else might be going on in someone’s life, before pressing ‘send.’